w is for wanyi

BYE!

2006-07-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

yar just delete this blog from all ur links my dear pple =] i've decided to abandon this place for a greener pasture! hoho

:D

i'm back! ha. er 5 days ago.

2006-06-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

nowadays there's a sense of laziness. what i mean is that i'm rather lazy in going out. hur. tired of meeting people. though i've been overseas almost the entire month already. somehow going hongkong and europe made me see things from a different perspective. somehow outings no longer seem so important to me. not that they were in the first place to anyone, but just more or less not so willing to spend my days outside.

maybe i'm just trying to gao zi bi XP but yet again, lazy to go out doesn't mean that i don't want to meet my very limited number of precious friends. hurhur, yar i've realised how little close friends i have that i can depend on. but come on, think on the bright side, at least i've got close friends in the first place. thankews to those people!!! :) for always tolerating my never-endng nonsense and of coz, my lameness. heh heh.

i'll blog about my europe trip and upload photos onto the net, er soon. hahaha. meanwhile i'm in the state of being "grounded" to tuition my brother. might as well take the chance to review my econs stuff. haha. and bring my bro to science centre to look at dinosaur bones. haha, wad an enriching week!!!! (hur)

so yar, can only meet u pple after this week. i'm sincerely sorry! :p

a few more hours

2006-06-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

to my 0745 flight! haha. supposed to meet at 0545 though ):

will be off to europe this time, from 5 to 15 jun.

got a new digicam today! woohoo! hahah the unhealthy squeezing and squashing at suntec city was worth it :)

i'm SO SO SO excited about the trip with the exception of the LONG flight. hoho. i'll try to bring souveniors. TRY. harhar if i can afford anything there in the first place.

hopefully i'll get to take loads of pictures! hohoho

i (don't) want to fly

2006-06-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

i've such an interesting flight schedule for my europe trip:

Singapore to Frankfurt, Germany:
SIN-DOH: 7 hrs 40 min
DOH-FRA: 6 hrs 35 min

Milan, Italy to Singapore:
MIL-DOH: 5 hrs 50 min
DOH-SIN: 8 hrs 10 min

*faints* I think my legs will jellify themselves after those LONG flights. And i can't believe that I was complaining about boredom on my THREE hours flights to Hongkong and back. Maybe it'll be a good idea to make a mindmap of what I'm going to do with my endless hours on those flights. I shall start by charging my ipod nano -___-'''

ah-choo!

2006-06-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

*cough* *cough* *cough*!

Strepsils(is that how you spell it?) apparently refuses to work for me. I've sucked plenty but the rusty gear in my throat still refuses to turn properly.(if you dunno what i'm talking about go watch its advertisement)In fact I think something must be stuck. Maybe my saliva somehow gellified or solidified w/o me realising and formed a saliva clot in my oesophagus. Therefore, little air get to pass through from my diaphragm to my mouth and so i'm spending my time croaking in the office.

And WHY is it always at this kind of time people call me?!!!! I don't want to croak to them. Already scared 3 innocent sales people who called my office just now. HA HA. Waiting for more victims-to-be to call.

2006-05-24T06:46:00.000+08:00

13 minutes and 38 seconds to type finish this entry beforethis free internet connection in the airport ends ): erps. hahaha me n wt n both chionging to finish a blog entry before departure. Hahah thanks to all those tt wished me good journey, good luck watsoever before i've left! :D I er....love u all!! hahaha. Hopefully i'll find a lot of things to buy and make them cheap please, coz i really want to buy a lot!! ahahah. okay can tell tt i'm rambling due to the adrenaline rush tt came along with a person having to wake up at 5am to board some plane-_-'''

Hahaha so now i'm off to hongkong pple~! CYA!! :D

PS: My tour grp reminds me of some senior citizen tour ): we are the only youngsters. HAI. May me n wt survives! :)

):

2006-05-11T12:07:00.000+08:00

I got shouted at 4 times in a row in 2 days. Wow. Maybe my voice says "come shout at me" these days. Hurhur.

One even said, "I'm not scolding you, I'm just raising my voice." what the..?!

elections 2006

2006-05-08T09:12:00.000+08:00

oh i was quite excited about elections. wahaha. afterall, i belong to the oh-so-controversial aljunied GRC. ah wells, i'm quite happy with the results :) at least their % increased mah ^_^ went to watch a rally (i shan't tell u what party:p) and it was SO EXCITING! there were like 20,000 or 30,000 + pple coz they all spilled out of the 10,000 capacity stadium. i was telling my momo that it reminds me of an ant camp. or rather, an ant community. after the rally ended, all the pple left like ants, coz erm..there were a lot of pple? aiya go try to imagine it urself lar. u'll need some creativity.

anyway i've decided on which sch i want to go to. surprisingly my momo was quite okay with it. now only left my lao pa. hmmm. haha i'll have to wait till he gets back from china then.

hypocrite.

2006-05-05T09:26:00.000+08:00

all along i believed that if 2 pple know each other, and esp if they have talked before, when their eyes meet, at least there should be a polite smile of acknowledgement or at least a nod, whatever.

i thought it's part of basic courtesy.

apparently in this lil company there's not much such courtesy. ironically they are extremely friendly to outsiders though. hah. they "HEY!" and "HI!" extremely loudly to outsiders. but they choose to pretend to be blind when they come face to face with another colleague. oh it must be because they think that same company pple = telepathy exists. no wonder they don't show any signs of recognizing you. hah. *rolls eyes*

but much as i grumble about such issues (and i think i grumble abt them because i'm too free) , i've been guilty of the above act these few days. hurhurhur. and i feel a lil bit guilty. maybe working life changes people. it's a miracle why people didn't evolve into mutes since you don't need to talk much when you are working. *shrugs*

oh by the way pls read: http://www.todayonline.com/articles/115271.asp when you are free. it's not bad :)

my daily grumbles no. 42623212

2006-05-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

i had an idea to turn this place into my daily grumbles. and the operating hours are 9.30am - 6.30pm, mondays to fridays. (aka my office hours) okay not really my office hours since it's actually from 9-6 but ah wells let's not be so calculative of such issues.

why?!! because i only have the time (and reason) to grumble during working hours like now, where i'm half bored to death. the other half didn't die because it has to act as a photocopier + fax machine + typewriter + factory worker. so it's kept rather busy and din have the time to die. erps. haha.

so my solution to fight boredom today is: eat candy floss in the office while i work.

anyway i feel like going back prince to eat some day. hai. i wonder when will tt day be ):

rain.rain.rain!

2006-05-03T14:01:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO! new template again~!!! *beams*

this time it's obviously inspired by rain, who is the male lead in full house ^_^ must really thank lionheart (though i've no idea who he/she is) for having the ingenious brains to somehow make such a neat and nice and blue-y and rainy template. ahahahahah.

i want to go jj concert!!!! interested anyone? ): esp when i'm like too broke to go. erm okay i'll ask again. interested in sponsering me anyone? hahahah.

oh n i want to watch MI3!!! apparently i weekly gave it a rating of 4.5/5 (wow!) which is rather high considering it often grudging and reluctantly gave other films ratings of 2s and 3s. so erm interested anyone?? hahaha not to worry man this one i don't need anyone to sponser me :p

and i want to go eat buffet. stuff myself with loads and loads and tons and tons of food. u get the picture. jessie where are you? aren't we supposed to go buffet together errr some time last week? ):

and i need to erm borrow autumn in my heart (qiu tian de tong hua) vcd. my momo wants to watch. haha anyone has? can lend me? ^_^'''

lunch.

2006-05-02T12:17:00.000+08:00

an hour can never feel so long. let alone 2 hours of lunch break. har. till now i still don't feel much sense of belonging to my darling novaCITYNETS. though nowadays there are new interns who's about my age, but they sit darn far. and i dun get much chance to really say much to them. okay i don't have much to say to them also. and they probably think i'm much older anyway. hur.

kind of tired of this type of working life lately. because there's nothing to look forward to. there's not many people which i can eat lunch with. there's not much variety of food i can look forward to eating. har har. and so sometimes during lunch hours like now i wallow in self-pity for a few minutes. hahaha.

things would probably be better if i was my friendly self. but can't seem to be bothered to be the usual talkative and crappy me. coz i don't see many people i'll want to talk to in the company. so yar i guess it's my fault for being so zi4 bi4 in the office. har har. ^_^'''

redundancy.

2006-05-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

how do you go about forgiving a person?

how do you judge whether the person deserve forgiveness?

does seeking forgiveness naturally mean that one should be forgiven?

can you really forgive and forget?
tell yourself that nothing happened and it was all part of imagination?
if you can't forget, are you wrong?
or are we just setting moral standards that are beyond our reach?

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is pursuing one's goals wrong?

what if someone gets hurt in the process?

can we blame the one who was just pursuing what she wants in life?

how low are you willing to stoop to get what you want?

how much are you willing to sacrifice?
what if you are the sacrifice?

the different ways of greeting.

2006-04-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

After sitting at this particular seat of mine in the office for 4 months, i've realised that there are only a few ways by which pple say morning to you.

1. nod at you and expect you to nod back. hurhur reminds me of the Nodding land that my brother had to memorise for dictation, where everyone communicates by purely nodding.

2. blatantly ignores your presence though they were just guilty of peeking at your computer screen just seconds ago 38-ly, to see what you had been up to. so they obviously saw you, but somehow during that precise moment of saying hello their pupils failed to detect light and all went dark around them, including you.

3. mutters hello at an octave of 0.1 and expect you to have the hearing of a fly. these people are better than the above species, just that your ears have to suffer. but hey! at least they bothered to acknowledge your microscopic presence.

4. smile and says morning/hello warmly. i love these species, but too bad they are endangered.

sigh. i'm really such a cynic sometimes. tsk tsk.

):

2006-04-27T09:49:00.000+08:00

got all the acceptance letters from the 3 biz schools tt i applied for =] yays. hahaha big prob now is which one to go to. HAI.

heavy rain + sick bro + air-con + boring job = one sick wanyi

):

do you know me?

2006-04-26T11:01:00.000+08:00

had an idea last night. to start a brand new blog. where nobody knows its address.

seems as though i have plenty to say again. but nowhere to say it to.

and i'm being just plain lazy because i can't be bothered to write it in some diary or journal.

haha jessie once said tt she had a weird feeling that i have a dark secret that nobody knows.

haha maybe i do, and if i do, it won't be just one, it will be some.

oh wells~

no use knowing how to eat mosquitoes.

2006-04-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

a lizard fell from the ceiling and went splat on the floor RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. and then the tail broke. and it just left the wriggling tail and ran away with its tiny froggy legs into a nearby sink.

i hate lizards.

YAY!!!

2006-04-22T15:32:00.000+08:00

Hohoho yesterday must be the happiest day i've had so far ^_^ Got the NTU letter of acceptance 4 biz, went for smu n the interview went quite well, my dad got back and bought me loads of original CDs!! And oh there's perhaps love DVD too! Finally i can get to watch this show :)

Oh and dino got into NTU accountancy! So happy for her! Afterall, she same grades as me mah, but accountancy accepted her afterall!! Hahaha wt was saying tt she got cheated, since they said they made a difficult selection :P And wt got shortlisted for the wonderful medicine fac. Hoho u must get in hor, then i can go visit u for free :P And yx got into NTU accountancy too! Yays!!! Hohoho so happy for all of them! :)

And may my darling friends tt opted for mass comm get mass comm too :)

It's a great day really :)

if only i can go for the jj concert though :P then it'll be perfect. heheheh

oh wells =p

2006-04-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

my fate is sealed. after going for a horrible interview my hopes are dashed. haha.

why do you think china wants taiwan back? do you really think that china wants taiwan back because of those reasons you've mentioned just now?

how do you measure history? Singapore was also part of Malaysia before right?

if you chose business because you feel that you can specialise in whatever you want to study later, doesn't that mean that you have no idea what to do in the future now?

oh meanie meanie. hahaha.

retard.

2006-04-19T10:21:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling more and more retarded as the days go by. giving up much higher pay jobs just doesn't seem very right. yet it doesn't seem very wrong either. rah.

i din get a job coz i need the money. face facts: i'm not a poor person. i dun need excess allowances and i dun need to top up my empty bank account. because my allowances are obviously enough to support me and i dun even have an empty bank account. i got a job to help pass time. i still think tt if i stayed at home, i would be darn bored and probably flop around watching endless vcds. and i'll beg my friends to go out with me coz i'm too bored. either that or i'll turn into a total introvert and by the end of july, i would have forgotten how to talk in the first place. so yay, i decided to look for a job and got myself this job.

i was quite happy with my current job and my tuition class at first but in the long run it has proven to be very tiring. because i have to sacrifice every single monday and friday night to listen to children AND the horrible principal make noise. (okay fine. the determinant was the horrible whiny principal.) so yay, i quitted the tuition job. Meanwhile, i've got loads of other job offers like relief teaching, assistant at dental clinic, sales personnel, more tuition jobs, tellers at banks, executives at banks, administrative work at ministries..yada yada. They all offer much higher pay. And i mean MUCH higher. it's like twice or more the tiny salary i get here. But yet the retarded me chose to stick to this awful company which has loads of office politics and bitchy pple.

WHY???!!!

because of a baby tt i've never even met before. HAI. stupid me can't bear the thought that the newborn baby has to be separated from her momo so young. obviously when penny (the woman i'm substituting) asked me whether i can continue with 2 more months of work at this horrible office coz she wanted to spend 2 more months with her baby, i can't say no? or rather, i know pple who are able to do it, but like i've said, i din do this bloody job for the sake of pennies. (haha oh it's a pun!) and i'm not evil enough to put all the blame of my horrible job on the baby and cause the poor young thing to live without her momo only 1 month after she's born. so yay, i agreed though there were million and one reason to say no.

so why am i complaining now?! it's my own fault tt i gave up the chance to go get those "better" jobs that would probably appear much nicer on my resume. and the retard thing is that i dun even regret my stupid decision, which obviously only seem to benefit the baby and her momo, who doesn't even feel any gratitude towards me. She was even trying to con me into believing that 2 months of holidays (june-july) should be more than enough for me, considering she knew tt i was planning to learn korean, take up driving lessons, go overseas, read novels, get decent rest, go for interviews, volunteer at ttp or some other organization, yada yada. Obviously 2 months weren't enough. So I was quite insulted by her coz i felt that my intelligence hasn't dropped until it's only that of a 3 yr old yet. Obviously i'll have to sacrifice some of those plans i have to continue with this job. Can she at least treat me with some decency? Especially when she dumped me with a lot of mistakes, causing me to have to help her correct all those errors in the horrible excel files? hrmph. People are just getting so ungrateful these days. *shakes head*

Oh wells, to think on the very very bright side, this company is good coz it lets me slack. and i have quite some free time to at least continue with my driving lessons and interviews and go hongkong. but i'm still quite sore about not being able to volunteer at ttp. Drama is still my interest ): hai. what to do? can only blame myself for being so retarded. *shakes head*

tsk tsk tsk.

yes. no. maybe?

2006-04-18T13:56:00.000+08:00

does the guy like you if he cares about what hairstyle you have, and if you cut it even shorter, he'll get upset?
yes. no. maybe.

does the guy like you if he keeps finding opportunities to share food with you?
maybe?

does the guy like you if he gets jealous when another guy offers to drive you home?
yes?

does the guy like you if he already has a girlfriend?
no?

So what's the verdict if the guy is the same guy?
ha. i'm amused.

I've lost it.

2006-04-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

Life's been pretty unhappy these days. I've lost the enthusiasm of wanting to go out with pple. I've lost the enthusiasm to go to work. I've lost the enthusiasm to even go driving. I've lost the enthusiasm to continue watching my da chang jin VCDs. Nothing much seems interesting to me anymore.

where's my drive in life? what was my drive in life?

Maybe it's coz my dad STILL isn't back and the atmosphere in my family now is just plainly irritation. my mom seems to be able to find everything irritating. if not, it'll me finding everything irritating. i dun really even bother to reply many sms-es nowadays. And i no longer call pple. Just no passion to talk. how pathetic.

Take for example, i went k lunch yesterday. For once i was very un-high. Harhar the only exciting part was probably meeting aj n zzyo n their friends at the same kbox. Oddly enough i want to go kbox again. And i want to watch a movie. With pple tt i rarely go out with. With pple tt i've not seen for a long time. Yet, i dun want to go out. I dunno how to explain it. Does anyone get it? Hur I'm a bit confused by myself.

Mark.

2006-04-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Mark = my driving instructor. HAI. he told me today tt he might not be able to teach me anymore coz the evil cdc might switch him to another time slot. basically if tt happens, he'll never teach me again coz i dun ever book tt time slot! and i've oredi booked my lessons for apr n may. *frown*

HAI. I like his lessons a lot lor! Coz he's really really really a darn nice + funny instructor. apparently he looks like gangster though. not those xiao hun hun. he belongs to those kind tt are freaky muscular n dark n tall who wear dark cool spectacles. (yar he wears dark cool spectacles) and he dun button his second button when he wears his instructor shirt. and he drinks red bull. so yar, i actually got a shock when i first met him. but tt's y it's funny to talk to him! coz he dun behave the way one would expect him to! haha. can u imagine? he goes for facials!! HAHAHA. and he's darn proud of his double eyelids and his curly eyelashes. erps. hahaha. he's damn 38 and will talk lots of crap with me. like the stories abt his 12 ex-girlfriends. erps. of all races n religion somemore. hahaha. and we bitch abt girls' behaviour towards guys tgt! hahaha. and he's BHB like me!! hahaha. and he always treat me to drinks lor! ):

so apparently it's rather sad to suddenly realise he might not be teaching me the entire driving course ): and according to him, he's the nicest one tt's in charge of my car liao. (bhb. hahaha.) the rest are all more serious n strict and behave like ah peks. so i cannot no big no small with them like i did with him liao ): haha not tt he's that much older. he's like 27? *frown* i really hope cdc won't be so evil as to swap him for some stern ah pek. i dun like stern ah peks.

BAHz. i'm upset. ):

the WORKAHOLIC's life [newsflash]

2006-04-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

o1. a colleague died yesterday mysteriously and the reporters actually even came down to the workaholic's company to do interviews, hoping to find out his reason for death. what was the workaholic doing? she spent a long time trying to find nicer flowers to send to his family members. the poor workaholic. it's hard to get a nice and big wrath when the company is only willing to pay not more than 100 bucks for it o.O

02. the workaholic's hongkong trip is SET! yays!! =) she's paying the deposit of 300 (+300 for wt) tml! woohoo!! but less 600 from her account = work even harder or else eat wind in hongkong *sob*

o3. yesterday the workaholic set a record for herself, leaving the company at the late hours of 8.30pm and going back to work this morning at the extremely early hours of 8am. (applause please.)

o4. on monday the workholic worked extremely hard for her driving, clinching a record of learning to drive thru filter lanes, do perfect left + right turns, u-turns, changing lanes, etc on her 3rd(and 4th) driving lesson. well done workaholic!! haha.

o5. tomorrow the workaholic is gg to pon 1/2 day of work and no longer be a workaholic from then on because she's not suitable for such a BORING job. she decided that there's another preferred method of approaching the job she has now. and it is a MUCH MORE interesting method. therefore, she's gg for tt approach. tomorrow will the d-day. the workaholic will revert back to her slack-and-try-to-act-busy self. Afterall, given her intelligence, being a workaholic is simply too easy a task for her. slack-and-try-to-act-busy is much harder. let's leave such hard work to the noble workaholic.

yoohoo!! =D

2006-04-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

yo pple LOOOOONG time no see!!! *brush aside cobwebs* it's been a LOOOOONG boring week. but hey, not to worry, i wun bore u with the details with what i did this week. Duh. *points to "boring"* so hey pple, WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?! *grinz*

ooohhh. so exciting. hahaha miss shu shall put some interesting (and lame) trivia below for meaningless entertainment's sake. don't complain okay. learning more facts is good for u. *glares behinds used-to-be-silver-and-now-it's-grey spectacles*
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w0w fact no. 1: The average person uses the bathroom 6 times per day.
hahaha! they actually bother to count! *amused*

w0w fact no. 2: The average person loses an average of 40 to 100 strands of hair a day.
): now u know why u have some bald patch on ur head.

w0w fact no. 3: The vocabulary of the average person consists of 5,000 to 6,000 words.
actually tt's quite little right? -.-

w0w fact no. 4: Humans shed about 600,000 particles of skin every hour - about 1.5 pounds a year. By 70 years of age, an average person will have lost 105 pounds of skin.
ewww.

w0w fact no. 5: Average number of eggs laid by the female American Oyster per year: 500 million. Usually only one oyster out of the bunch reaches maturity.
the rest probably died! *evil laugh*

w0w fact no. 6: The average life span of a mosquito is two weeks.
HAHAHAHAH! i hate mosquitoes. HAHAHA too bad they die young =p hmm. let's ALL point to the evil bloody (pun intended) mosquito and laugh at it! "MUAHAHAHAH! you only live for a fortnight! -bleah-"

w0w fact no. 7: On average, right-handed people live 9 years longer than their left-handed counterparts.
i'm a LEFT-handed person who writes using her RIGHT hand. am i still considered one of the short-lived "left-handed counterparts"? ):

w0w fact no. 8: The size of a raindrop is around 0.5 mm - 2.5 mm, and they fall from the sky on average 21 feet per second.
this is obviously some bo liao piece of fact. a good question to ask the person who found this would be "SO?"

w0w fact no. 9: The average duration of sexual intercourse for humans is 2 minutes.
ERPS. actually i was honestly wondering whether 2 min is considered short or long.

w0w fact no. 10: The average human body contains enough:iron to make a 3 inch nail, sulfur to kill all fleas on an average dog, carbon to make 900 pencils, potassium to fire a toy cannon,fat to make 7 bars of soap,phosphorous to make 2,200 match heads, and water to fill a ten-gallon tank.
SO?!

w0w fact no. 11: The average pencil will draw a line 35 miles long or write approximately 50,000 English words.
oh putting fact 10 n 11 tgt: an average human body contains enough carbon to draw a line 31500 miles long or write about 45,000,000 English words. WOW.

w0w fact no. 12: The average snail moves at a rate of approximately 0.000362005 miles per hour.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. though i don't happen to dislike snails..but hey no harm laughing at its speed rite? =p *tempted to point and laugh at snail* but oh wells, i'm not too fast myself ): poor snail. poor me. ):

HE WON HE WON HE WON!!

2006-04-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

ZHIYANG WON!!!!!!!!! -screams and shouts and cheers!-

:D

OMG. WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOooooooOOOOHooOOOooOOO!!! :D

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i miss hc days!!! esp when looking at all those supporters in sch! ): i can bet u tt if i'm still in sch i wld gladly join them! muahahahah. though yar, i still think they din really have to show our yellowish flag -__-''' bleah, shld haf treasured my last days in hc more lor! and i promise i'll be super nice to siva and june and holy. MUAHAHAHAH. okay i'm lying through my small teeth. but yar, i DO want to go back! ):

last day of tuition.

2006-03-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

oh i do think i'm going to miss all those kids. SIGH. they can be so irritating and disturbing, but their sweet and cute personalities always stand out above those less desirable qualities.

thankew thankew thankew JIAS for helping me to take care of them right till 845!!! i really can't thank you enough. thankew!!!

basically it had been the LONGEST day for me today. really darn tired n beaten now. loads of unfortunate things choose to happen today but i shall not elaborate in the hope of forgetting them soon:) at least today ended well.

by the way the cute darlings gave me presents! hahahah i received a pro-looking photo frame, a bookmark, a scrapbook of drawings and a A3 size drawing. haha though they are all addressed to Mrs. Shu. -_______-

hai, some things they just can't seem to rmb.

oh but they DO rmb one thing -- Mrs. Shu is one of their fav disney princesses too! -beams- Hahahah they say i remind them of Cindelala (okay Cinderella). Erps. Think tt just means tt i got a maid face or sth. Which reminds me, one of my students told me excitedly today tt i have the same pair of shoes as her maid! -____- hurhurhur.

Oh wells, no matter wad, i'm still a princess to them! MUAHAHAHA =p

i need CDs!!! ):

2006-03-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

superwoman
Early In The Morning,
I Put Breakfast At Your Table
一夜都没睡但我　不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你　爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡　的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨　对我微笑着的你
还能够　做些什么代替我的歉意
总是望着我　小心翼翼顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然　让你精疲力尽

You Are My Super Woman
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human Mmmm
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你
Ooh~ Baby~ Baby~

You Fought Your Way Through The Rush Hour
Try To Make It Home Just For Me
月光下静静靠着彼此　只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你　只是认定了我
无论在什么时候回头　都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有　想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待　不要真的弃权

You Are My Super WomanOoh~ Ho~
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human Er He~
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你
Ooh~ Baby~
是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的 Super Woman
没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成　灰烬

You Are My Super WomanOoh~ Ho~
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (是我只是一个只是一个人)
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你 He-Ooh~
If You Feel It In Your Heart And You Understand Me.STOP Right Where You Are, Everybody Sing Along With Me.

You Are My Super WomanOoh~ Ho~
安静的在身边 (在身边)　无条件给我 (无条件给我)　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (Hai Human， Hu Hu Hu Hu Man~)
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你
You Are My Super WomanOoh~ Oh Yes You Are
安静的在身边　无条件给我　梦寐以求的温柔
But I Am Only Human (Human) Mmm Mmm~
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你--

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Ever since last sat aka the day of k lunch, i realise i have a whole long list of CDs tt i want to buy. Unfortunately, I'm already broke. Hahaha yar, even before i managed to get my hands on even one of those circular discs. not even china ones. -____-

Let's see:
1. wan mei de yi tian (stefanie sun) --> i'm quite regretful tt i actually din buy it ):
2. ge ge blue (cao ge) --> oh his superwoman rocks!!
3. cao cao (lin jun jie) --> my idol *melts* =]
4. shi yi yue de xiao bang (jay chou) --> shan hu hai shan hu hai shan hu hai! =D
5. zhen shi (a mei) --> this one is really really long ago ):
6. bu xiang zhang da (SHE) --> my idols!! *melts again* =D
7. wadever name wangfu's CD is (wangfu) --> they are SO cute!!!
8. gou gou shou (meimei) --> though i happen to dislike her i DO like her this ONE song. hurhur

*solidifies* (hahaha since i melted just now mah=p) are there any kind and probably rich souls that are willing to lend the above *points to above* CDs for me to put into my nano? i dun wanna d/l leh..hahaha i'm not rich enough to pay the fines if i get caught =p pretty pls?? *blink blink* ^_^

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oh dear i'm in a seriously act cute mode -___- HAI. this is wad being stuck in an office do to you: make u ridiculous and senseless.

this is really purely 4 self-entertainment purposes only.

2006-03-29T14:58:00.000+08:00

it's on another boring afternoon like now that my bitchy twin is awake and the angelic version of me went to sleep. so now my brain is filled with evil bitchy thoughts. muahaha. however, sadly i can only derive joy from thinking such thoughts rather than really carrying them out ): to be specific, i can only derive joy from imagining my evil fantasies become reality, while chewing on dried cranberries.

reality is that the extremely bored me is currently chewing on dried cranberries and sitting at the recep table of my very boring company, staring into a probably pentium 0 computer screen as though expecting it to say HI back to me. even if it does i bet it'll take months before the computer will respond to my staring, because it's pentium ZERO. hai..turning into a stone in front of a non-responsive computer has never been one of my favourite hobbies -____-

oh by the way, i noticed that some of my colleagues have weird habits. Is it just me, or do everyone brush their teeth in the company toilets after lunch? Do you? -raise eyebrow- So yay, my favourite hideout in the company aka the toilet always smells of colgate or darlie. guess wad? it smells more of colgate though. hahaha. know wad this means? MORE PEOPLE PREFER COLGATE TO DARLIE AS THEIR LEADING TOOTHPASTE! :D Congrats colgate! U r the champion toothpaste in my company! and dun be too disappointed Darlie! No matter wad i'm still ur ardent fan! U'll still be the leading toothpaste in my life! :D

Professional Analysis of Situation: Actually such results are expected. tsk tsk. afterall, there are more bai2 ren2 than hei1 ren2 in my company. hahaha so of coz darlie can't win this time. who ask it to brand itself hei1 ren2 ya2 gao1?! =P But based on the current world statistics, Darlie would really have to work harder, considering China's birth rate is increasing faster than any other parts of the world so yar.. bai2 ren2 might be the majority species in the future millenium. However, we must not forget the existence of a very important external factor: SUNLIGHT. with global warming and greenhouse effect on the rise nowadays, you cannot deny that even bai2 ren2 will eventually become hei2 ren2. This is really a worrying factor for poor Colgate. I guess the only way to determine who wins is whether Colgate is able to somehow increase China's birth rate further and also buy all the stocks available for tanning lotions etc to prevent further hei1-ing of ren2. Or Darlie might win unexpectedly if they decide to burn more fuel and add on to the hole in the ozone layer. This might greatly increase the number of hei1 ren2 in the universe. (okay i'm exaggerating. the earth.) Alternatively of coz, it can choose to start manufacturing tanning lotions, and sell them where the Colgate workers can't find them. [end of report]

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By the way, in case you still haven't realise, everything up there is purely fictional. other than the part where my colleagues brush their teeth after lunch hours and the toilet smelling more like colgate than darlie. I hope no one will quote anything i said up there for I am afraid of being sued. haha. Anyway, as i said, it's purely for self-entertainment purposes and i am not discriminating against any brand of toothpaste or any type of pple. don't think too much and don't read too much into wad i've typed :)

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i want to do volunteer work after i finish my current job =] but prob is i still haven't thot of wad to do. unfortunately, there's no big disasters happening around the world these days (obviously i'm NOT trying to pray for sth bad to happen, u know wad i mean -.-) so i haf no countries to go to give help. cheryl suggested SPCA. it sounds fun, i think, but the only problem is that i'm scared of dogs and cats. hooray, majority of SPCA is made up of dogs and cats rite? *frown* HOW??!! *frown again* i shall go think about it. HAHA afterall i have one more month to go :p

3rd entry of the day.

2006-03-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

i see no point in being vindictive. even more no point in being bitter. there is a distinction between plainly venting your frustrations AND deliberately doing something that you are well aware that the person you are directing it at will notice it. It's the difference between anger and bitterness. It's the difference between losing your cool and seeking vengeance. It's time that you should learn about it. trust me, it'll be good for you.

that being said, i've made my point.

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i DO regret putting that hanyu pinyin entry there. because too many pple have asked me wad is it abt. which honestly, except for a particular few, the rest i really have no interest in explaining it to. and in case it is not clear enough, it's in hanyu pinyin precisely because i don't want pple to read it. why publish it then? becoz it was just a way tt i could vent wad i've been bottling for so long. and stupid me actually thot tt nobody will bother reading it since it's quite ma fan to do so. tt's all. apparently i'm wrong. and i daresay i won't do it again.

as for those few (whom i do believe u know who u are) tt really cares for me, asking wad's wrong etc, thanks :) and of coz sorry, haha for torturing u with another upsetting entry. ^_^''' and for the sake of my good friends this shall be my very last entry tt is directed at the particular someone. haha it's abt time tt i shld be myself, and just let go. and can still wake up each day knowing tt i have a clear conscience and have done nth wrong even if there are pple upset with me. well, u can't please everyone around you can you? =p

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and don't even try asking me what this entry means.

words of wisdom.

2006-03-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

when did you become so.. er... self doubting?
wo ye bu zhi dao yao shuo shen me.
jiu shi yao fang xia lo.
are you trying to laugh it away?
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wow. i'm impressed.

珊瑚海

2006-03-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

词:方文山曲:周杰伦

男:海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈

女:你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在
男女:那难过无声慢了下来
男女:汹涌潮水你听明白不是浪而是泪海

男:转身离开分手说不出来
(女:你有话说不出来)
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男:我们的爱差异一直存在
(女:给的爱差异一直存在)
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女:等待竟累积成伤害

男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白
(女:你有我的不够成熟坦白)
女:不应该
男女:热情不再笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀

女:贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男:等花儿开
男女:我们也已经无心再猜
女男:脸上海风咸咸的爱尝不出还有未来

男:转身离开分手说不出来
(女:你有话说不出来)
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女:等待竟累积成伤害

男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白
(女:你有我的不够成熟坦白)
女:不应该
男:热情不在笑容勉强不来
(女:你的笑容勉强不来)
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

trouble-troubles-troubled.

2006-03-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

Had a sleepless night. Literally, since i TRIED to start falling asleep at 2am yesterday and find myself still awake by 4am. Slept for probably erm 15-30min before the heavy rain came and woke me up at 5am. den it was an entire sleepless period where i just hug my harry potter bolster and stare into the extremely high ceiling of my house.

no, it was not because i slept too much on sunday. harhar.

was trying to make a decision on an action. to do or not to do. ironically, though i can't think of any benefits of not to do, i still can't bring myself to do it.

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ben lai yi wei yi jing jie shu. mei xiang dao zhi shi ling wai yi ge bu tong de kai shi. shi shi shi zhe jian shi cong lai dou mei you jie shu guo. wo xiang, wo zhi shi tai li hai qi pian zi ji, tai xiang qi pian zi ji, zhe xi qie dai biao yi ge jie shu. hao ben o. shuo bu ding, you shi zhi zhong, wo hai shi yi zhi bie ren pan shang de qi zi, er zhe cong mei gai bian guo. dan shi shi shi hou gai gai bian lian. shi shi hou gai xiang xiang zi ji. shi shi hou gai fa xian you xie ren bing bu shi zi ji xiang xiang zhong de na me zhong yao. zi ji ye bu bi wei le zhe zhong ren shou na me duo wei qu. dan shi jiu shi rong yi xin ruan ni yao wo zen yang? shuo bu ding wo de ren sheng jiu shi zhu ding yao zhe yang, ying wei wo sheng lai jiu shi zhe yang, er wo fa xian, yuan lai guo le zhe me jiu le, sui ran yi zhi yi wei zi ji you suo gai bian, dan ye zhi shi zi ji pian zi ji, zi ji an wei zi ji ba le. hen hao xiao ba?

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trust me, those words were in hanyu pinyin for a good reason.

A perfect sat + A perfect sun

2006-03-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

= A perfect weekend! =]

disclaimer: it's a darn long entry. read if u r really bored. Hurhur.

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Yesterday had been a great day for me. Hahaha after all the sms-es and phone calls it had managed to be a success! :) Hahaha only yx knows wad i'm referring to. (Thanx woman! though u were unable to make it) Anyway, I guess I can safely say tt we all did enjoy ourselves. Hohoho:D

Don't understand wad I'm talking abt? Hahaha of coz right, I haven't even told u wad happened yesterday. :P

Oh actually all I did was to go k lunch (again). Though I had though the combi would probably be weird, but hey! Unexpectedly, it was a can't-be-better combi. Hahaha we ended up staying at kbox from 11-3pm(mind you, k lunch was from 11-2), so you can guess that we were quite determined to be CHEAPSKATE and si3 lai4 zhe4 bu4 zou3. Hahaha but honestly there was no one to tell us to leave in the first place. So sweet of that kbox :p I bet they are so nice to us because first, they gave us a faulty controller that is over-enthu, where u don't need to press anything and the screen jumps to the next page on its own; and secondly, the lunch there was quite horrible that day. It was soya chicken rice, where..hahaha just like its name, all u see is a few tiny pieces of chicken with a BIG CHUNK of chicken rice and some brown stuff tt is supposed to be the gravy but tastes just like plain soya sauce. So yup, I figured that they are probably feeling sorry about offering such a skimpy lunch by pretending to forget tt we were supposed to be out of our room 25 by 2pm sharp. Hahaha erm thanks kbox? :D

Oh by the way, me and jias decided that actually we are not that different from angela zhang. Hahaha she's SO pretty only because she got fake eyelashes and mascara and therefore her eyes are BIG. Apparently those 2 guys disagreed -__- "Hai2 cha1 de2 yuan3!!" ): Quite evil right? Can't even let us lie to ourselves once in a while. Hrmph.

And den we went to erm shop. Hahaha why erm shop? Because I think majority of the time it's me n jias who were doing the shopping. Apparently u don't expect those 2 guys to be interested in makeup or some boutique shop or body shop or some mini toons right? Hurhur. Oh we must have went into MANY shops uncontrollably, since it was soon that 5pm came. And mind you, we din stay very long at any single shops. Hahaha somehow had the memory tt we went into loads of gift shops (becoz jias wanted to buy sth for her colleagues). And i found a lot of things that I want pple to buy for me! :D ( i can imagine ur -__-'' face) Serious! Hahaha i saw loads of damn cute me to you bears on the shelves(they are ALL darn cute, coz they all are the same bear..haha) , i saw a mug tt could sing and has aroma, i saw the me to you bear keychain tt i wanted since sec sth, and i was reminded of the zhang hui mei's zhen1 shi2 CD that I always wanted to buy but couldn't find.

Oh and i guess i shld mention this. My *ahem* friends cheated me tt this ice cream machine outside century square was FAKE. I had thot it was REAL (and it really was REAL) but apparently they decided tt it'll be funny to tell me tt it's FAKE. And i fell for it! ): Because they burst out laughing when i said sth like i actually knew that the machine was fake long ago (to save my face tt i actually think tt it's real, ironically) Hrmph. So yay, everyone laughed at me -__- Haha but it was quite funny lar.

Well we basically finished all the possible shops in tm n century square. The poor guys. Thankfully me n jias felt tired and a bitz hungry so we went 2 the food court to sit down n buy desserts. Oh n i finally know wad is tt putu sth from the malay stall!! Hahah coz i finally had a taste of wad it's like. Hmm it's not bad lar. Oh and den of coz we talked abt uni, which is when i realise they thought i got 3As. -___-''' Erps, I must have looked smart :p Hahaha. Anyway me n jias were more amused (and amazed) at how big the other 2's stomachs are. Because after finishing dessert and a not-very-small roti prata and tt putu thingy they were STILL very hungry. As though they ate nth. o.O really that hungry mah? though ya we had a not-too-great lunch but hey, the amount of rice given was quite alot?? -__-

Anyway of coz the outing had to end at some point of time, so after the dessert trip we split ways and went home. Which for me, meant a steamboat dinner! :D Hohoho.

Spent the rest of the day buying a very very very pretty notebook for jotting down the Korean notes, and watching tv and chatting with yx. Hohoho :D

And yup, my wan2 mei3 de4 yi4 tian1 ended:)

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Today was a GREAT day too coz it is a SLACKING day! :D

i slept thrice. hahaha once aft breakfast, once aft lunch and once aft dinner. -beams- So slack! ^_^ So now i'm a bitz too awake, oh wells :p

And i went to the national library to borrow some papercraft books! Hohoho now i've got sth to make as well :)

Life's so wonderful in its simplest form, isn't it? :)

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Anyway i still got loads of things tt i wanna do in the remaining time of the holidays:

o1. learn korean! (yar i finally began learning it)
o2. go watch movies! hoho looking 4ward to the double date with wt. hahaha
o3. go hark music!
o4. learn loads and loads of driving!
o5. finish all my korean drama DVDs!
o6. go borrow some more korean n hongkong VCDs to pass my time!
o7. buy all the CDs tt i want (which is A LOT)
o8. don't go to work :p heheh

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Oh according the very nice myheritage.com, my photos mostly turn out to look like choi zhi you or zhang ziyi. MUAHAHAHAH.

must be i'm turning prettier XD

pinkie dookie!! :D

2006-03-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

Yays new template. pink PINK PINK. and loads of lovers in paris photos. hahaha for wad purpose? obviously to entertain myself :p so nice nice nice hor?

muahahahah.

apparently i did like the prev snail one..so i changed the template of my old blog to tt one! u can erm visit it if u like --> http://applezangel.blogspot.com

haha so sorry usin, i think green is not suitable for moi. more suitable for u ;)

wad a retard entry. hahahaha so sorry, i'm just in a very cheerful pinkie dookie state! ^_^

lovers in paris

2006-03-22T10:48:00.000+08:00

stayed till 3am this morning to finish watching the dvds. wad to say? the story touches me. wanted so much to blog sth abt it aft watching all 20 episodes, but yet now, here am i, finding suitable words to describe this drama. and i realise i can't find many. maybe the ending was a "pile of crap", to quote fengjiao, to some pple. but oh wells, i DID love the ending. in fact i loved every part of the show, esp the little details, because the little details were the most moving. funny how when pple break up or like each other, it's because of those tiny details that others around them probably din notice or din noe abt it.

hmm...at least it wasn't a pathetic tragedy, and it wasn't a simple chick flick either. it felt so real. so so realistic because there was no attempts to try to steer the plot into a tear-jerking ending, or some too-good-to-be-true fairy tale like ending. the actors performed well and the plot was great. maybe some found the ending disappointing because it was one of those fairy tales, and neither was it one of those typical korean tragedies like stairway to heaven. but from another point of view i guess it could be classified under sensible and down-to-earth, which is my idea of a good ending. because it makes the whole story seems as though it's based on some real-life people's lives or sth.

oh wells. my point is just tt it's a korean drama tt left a big impact on me because it wasn't a normal idol chick flick, it has substance. the plot reflected on many truths about life itself tt i've now come to understand. probably i had used to watch other dramas tt actually did have such depth,but maybe it takes one to gain certain unhappy experiences before really understanding how those characters in the dramas feel, and also understanding the true meaning behind the plot. and i bet most pple won't even know what i'm talking abt, so i shall spare them the torture of not understanding by ending this entry here now. harhar :p

by the way, i'm currently working on a new blogskin again! yays! :D hahaha guess the theme this time. i'm tired of seeing green (though this poor snail template is only here for a day) so yar, shall turn to another colour tt suits me more --> rainbow!! and pink!! :D hrmph..office hours now, so i shall work harder...work harder on my blog layout..hahaha

1st driving lesson

2006-03-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

Oh it was SO fun!! :) my instructor was super funny. hahaha yay i like him! :D and he was nice can? sent me back to kovan there and even walk me to a nearby void deck with an umbrella coz it was raining. (i realise i'm sounding like a bimbo who nv saw an umbrella or sth) but yar, u must admit, at least i'm lucky enough not to get some weirdo instructor that refuse to chit chat with me or sth lar hor? :p

but apparantly i din noe tt my first lesson oredi meant driving on the REAL road. (yar u r gg to say there's no FAKE road) haha anyway it was so scary on the real road. coz i still have to turn and wait for traffic lights and blah blah blah with the other REAL drivers. (yes i know there's no FAKE drivers)

anyway i DO think i'm erm not really suited for driving. because i can't tell the difference between left and right. kept stepping the brake pedal with my left foot though he told me to step on it with my right foot. and i kept stepping on the ACCELERATOR pedal when he told me to step on the BRAKE pedal. and i close my eyes and try to peek instead when some vehicle looks like it's gg to crash into me. and oh, i ask baichi questions. for eg, i think he nearly fainted when i ask him how to get the air bag in the steering wheel to open. apparently he told me with a trying-not-to-laugh face "Erm..get into an accident?" and then he laughed.

so as one would realise, my instructor kept laughing at me. -________- but he said tt i got driver's face okay! and apparently i'm supposed to be quite talented! :D yar, despite my erm minor problems. he apparently told me that i'm one of his funniest trainees. but he said i am a good driver, just tt i'm too amusing liao. -________-

but yar, the entire trip from kovan to ubi to kovan was darn funny lar. i'm amused by myself as a driver. hahaha

oh, i also noticed sth while i was in the circuit. all the practical test instructors look the SAME. they wear the SAME white shirt with the SAME dark long pants, SAME gold-rimmed spectacles, are SIMILARLY thin, have wrinkles on their foreheads. most significantly, they all wear the SAME disappoving look. that kind u see on the discipline masters' faces in school. hahaha maybe those discipline masters in schools all retire to become driving test instructors. HAHAHA maybe i'll see QQ or PangPang someday as a driving instructor too!! (only prob is tt pangpang need to lose some weight first..hahaha)

Oh and i changed my blog layout! :D nice right? muahaha another nice one done during my office hours! hohoho :p

a bad BAD monday.

2006-03-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

today i zapped more than 200+ pages worth of magazines n brochures. mind you, they are freaking difficult to zap because they r of irregular sizes (ie. bigger than A4). but yet i am supposed to shrink them into a4 size, page by page. oh, by the way obviously the magazine pages are joined tgt by some glue or some crap and SO i've to flip thru them one by one to photocopy them. bloody irritating -_-''' and guess wad, my already-very-ugly-due-to-lack-of-sleep-panda-eyes are going to go blind soon. either that or they might get cancer. coz the poor pupils were made to stare into the EXTREMELY BRIGHT green lights of the photocopier machine. "Why don't you just close the stupid cover before zapping?" One may ask. Let me tell u why. BECAUSE THE WHOLE STACK OF CRAP IS DUE BY 3. and i received it at 11.30, thirty minutes before my lunch break starts. HOORAY. i ought to get a best supporting photocopier award for this kind deed of mine, since it's NOT part of my already-very-rubbish job.

today i also faxed sth wrongly. a contract somemore. apparently told me to fax a document w/o telling me tt the dialling no. is a malaysia no. HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW IT GOES TO MALAYSIA WHEN IT ALSO HAS 7 BIG FAT DIGITS LIKE SINGAPORE?! o.O so let's applause pple, the contract has now flew to somewhere in singapore, if such a fax no. exists in singapore in the first place. and hello?? do i look like a IDD dictionary? I must have, or else why do they expect me to know the different IDD no. to all the different cities of Malaysia?! or even Thailand?! wth.

oh, by the way i think i must resemble either a data matching software or a photocopier machine. because that is precisely what the evil pple dump on me. to be specific, those are the types of dirty jobs they are supposed to do but dump it on me. because i don't even have the time to finish my own tasks now. yays. it's a miracle i haven't got sacked yet. oh wait, i should say that it's a miracle if they want to sack me. afterall, though i don't do my own job, i do perform well as a photocopier machine and a data matching software with "99% accuracy", to quote one of my cynical colleagues.

to #$^%$@&%: just shut up if you have nth good to say. i'm seriously in one of my worst moods and don't need you to make it worse.

strange highs

2006-03-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

i'm experiencing loads of happiness this week. which is weird. (no i'm not complaining). just tt despite all those "unhappy" entries, i feel happy inside me. like i've finally found the missing jigsaw piece in my life.

erm anyone shares such feelings?

it's a mixture of relief, happiness, feeling lucky and being loved. *frowns* it's just weird. i mean, knowing my endless routine working life, it seems rather odd that there's such strange highs in my life? -shrugs-

wadever it is, i shall treasure it while it lasts (: hopefully forever of coz. hahaha :D

the irony of my life.

2006-03-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

today was another day of work.work.work. to think school hols are ending. hurhur does it mean anything to me? ): sch has left me for 3 mths already. but it still feels as though i've never left sch before.

it's an endless cycle to go to work each day, end work n go home, sleep and go to work the next morning again. it's also a boring cycle by the way, haha.

sigh.

i have nothing to look forward to.
i have too much to listen to.
i have a lot to say.
i have nobody to say it to.

this forms the irony of my life.

fairy tales

2006-03-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

watched disney on ice just now!!! it was SPECTACULAR!!! *cheers* their stage layout was awesome and the ice skaters were just totally graceful and perfect. yay i took many pics from my not-too-bad seats :D and i was so darn proud of myself coz i realize i recognize all the cartoon characters! hahaha this means tt i have a childhood afterall! :D

anyway everything was so so ex lar. a bag of candy floss with the mickey's face on the plastic bag costed $12! oh but they gave out a crown with mickey's ears on it along with that candy floss. but still, $12?!! oh wells, loads of parents bought for their children. and of coz there were other goodies that costed even more, though they were obviously just different because they had some characters' face on it. hahaha. oh and the darn cute teapot in beauty and the beast, it costed $28!

oh my bro's reaction towards those goodies was quite amusing:

me: mother, look at the other pple, they all got something n we don't ):
bro: (disapproving look) u shld be contented, they are just pple who got too much money and nowhere to spend (points at a couple behind us who just bought sth 4 their princessy daughter)
couple: 0_O'''

oh talking about amusement, my mom said sth amusing too when we were waiting the bus:

me: (looking into my reflection on some glass) mother, don't u think there's sth wrong with my nose? it seems a little flatter than usual ):
mom: (glared at me) wanyi, don't u think u shld be more worried that maybe there's sth wrong with ur mental health? u seem a little weirder than usual.
me: -_____-'''

by the way both quotes were in chinese, but yar i'm too lazy to type chinese anyway. hahaha u can try translating them in ur free time :D

anyway as i was saying, they got darn good stage layout. and of coz darn good lightings. somehow everyone's costumes were so glittery n princessy! =D for a short moment of abt 1 n a half hours i was willing to believe that fairy tales do exist, coz it was simply beautiful :)

though yar, aft the entire performance it was back to our darling reality. where we had to squeeze into a tiny bus. basically i was the very last passenger, so guess wad, i was trying hard to balance and not smack into the front door which was just centimetres behind me. hrmph talk abt fairy tales! somehow princes don't exist in real world. so nobody is gg to carry all of us away in some horse carriage thingy. so we'll end up packing ourselves like sardines into tt bus. but i kind of enjoyed the experience. erm yar, including the squeezing part. hahaha no i'm not turning into some self-toture person. just tt thruóut the entire bus journey, everywhere in the bus were kids and their parents. and all of them wore a satisfied big smile, with or without those goodies. =]

there are so many things that money can't buy:)

so i guess it's okay if my jingui prince will nv turn up in my life.

haha coz i'm no princess anyway :D

reminiscences of past gaiety

2006-03-15T09:10:00.000+08:00

huangcheng 06 finally ended on last sunday. watched the very last show. it was GREAT! I loved each of the ju-s in their own ways. i liked the cast of 3.5 ju chang (esp 96 of coz..haha) , the plot of 9, and the stage design of zong you yi tian deng dao ni. and i think the siyis were really really zai! =] to some extent i think they did much better than our year, so yup, quite proud of the juniors:)

but when it all ended, kind of felt a little empty inside. no more excuses for me to go back hwa chong anymore, no more such chances when i can meet those other huangcheng pple of my batch anymore too ): seems as though from then on, we split our ways. (haha unless jias is gg ahead with the chalet idea of coz! :D)

it was a happy day of coz, hahaha esp the part when me n jessie tried our best to find something suitable for all of them yet ahem, cheap. hahaha and it was even more fun trying to wrap those presents in such a way that it wouldn't make them realize that our wrapping skills are horrible. apparently it was quite funny the whole time:D and we bought badges that said: ASK ME 4 THE LATEST GOSSIP! :D suit us hor? :p

and i met aj!! hahahaha so long nv see him le, he's still the same old aj. hai~! a bit darker, a bit fatter(according to him), but still the same old him. hahaha coz we caught him dazing off into his world!! and it happened at a weird place coz he was basically in breadtalk -.-''' so yar, basically i doubt he changed much.

but of coz there were some unhappiness..doubt i shld go mourn about it here. hahaha.

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why masquerade? it won't and didn't change. so just let it be.

a new beginning!! muahahahah

2006-03-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

before i begin on my pointless entry, i shall do this quiz below for jessie who must be very interested in my results! hahaha :D

*4 things/people that make me smile:
1. no work! yay! =D
2. watching those darn touching + romantic korean/hongkong drama
3. watching movies/ gg kbox/ gg muchuan with good buds
4. seeing my darling friends doing something stupid (hahahah)
eg. jessie calling the girl at mac 'auntie'
eg. yuexin giving her suggestive look
eg. yuwadae tan (okay everything about her is funny)

*4 ways to win my heart:
1. treat me to paris seafood buffet (for the very rich^_^)
2. treat me haagen daaz chocolate fondue (for not-so-rich^_^)
3. treat me to mache (for the middle class-_-)
4. treat me to kfc (for the apparently-not-rich>_<) *4 things I believe:
1. there's someone out there for everyone
2. impossible is nothing
3. food is the solution to everything
4. I rock =]

*4 things I am afraid of:
1. anything wormy
2. loneliness ):
3. death of a close one
4. wenting :D

*4 things/people I wanna see right now:
1. Rich + Handsome + Gentlemanly + Intelligent + Humorous + Kind-hearted + Filial Guys! (do they even exist?!)
2. money falling from the sky!!!! (okay ignore that....happiness :D)
3. world peace! i'm noble :)
4. world health! i told u, i'm very noble :)

*4 people who should also do this:
1. wenting (the one i'm afraid of)
2. jessie (but she oredi did it -.-)
3. the lazy yuwadae tan =P
4. anyone who is feeling bored or just finding an excuse to slack at work like me
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*breathe in fresh air*

got rid of tuition. finally. muahahah last day is 31 mar 06. *cheers* i'll miss the kids though): but ah wells, i bet they'll be better off w/o me ^_^''

as for uni...hahaha i'm considering between being practical and following my interests. both seems a not bad path (: practical/interest? practical/interest?! bahz! i shall go and explore all those open houses before making a decision (:

huangcheng 06 coming so darn soon! it's just this saturday/sunday. wow. i feel so old oredi ): yet, huangcheng 05 doesn't seem that long ago. hai, time flies too fast until i can't catch up oredi. i AM getting old): soon i'll get wrinkles on my face and will need fake teeth in order to bite into some piece of vegetable!!! *shudders* i CAN'T imagine myself with wrinkles, let alone fake teeth -___-'''

hmmm talking about eating, let me share a lame joke that my brother told me that day:

Mother: John dear, please refill the water for the darling goldfishes in the fish tank.
John: No need.
Mother: ??
John: Because they haven't even finished what I gave them last month!

hahahahaha, i can almost imagine that o.O look on your face. so i shall just end this pointless entry here.

tata! =D

hmmm

2006-03-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

cooled down. think my previous blog entry sounded rather pissed. hmmm. but life has been rather difficult nowadays. my company's pple dumps their work on me, and my tuition agency is refusing to let me give one month's notice for quitting by ignoring all my phone calls and sms-es. worst thing is, if i quit now, without one month's notice, i'll have to pay 300 bucks. hai. how do i give one month's notice if they refuse to hear it?! ):

bought 4 new bottles of nail polish this week. cut my hair just now. hurhur maybe i can only rely on such artificial ways to try to change my mood ):

sigh.

epilogue.

2006-03-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

finally have a chance to make good use of the weekend to think back what has happened this entire week.

it kind of struck me (and probably also shocked me) how alone one can be. no matter how many good friends you have, no matter how many birthday presents or good luck messages you receive. in the end, the fact is, you will be left alone when something happens.

it's just interesting how some people are innately selfish.

i'm not trying to be cynical here. but seriously how many people will sincerely give a damn about what you are going through. or what you have been going through. in the long run it will all just boils down to whether what you are going through will affect them. because if you are obviously going through a big big crisis, if they don't help you, and they are well-known as being your greatest friends, all the other people will start pointing fingers at them. "How could you not help her? She's your bestest friend!" So yar, for the sake of yourself, you tries a little to offer a little help to your -bestest- friend . "oh so sweet of her to help her bestest friend." And you get a little more glow on your face, because others now know you as a caring and sensitive human. do you need some applause for that wonderful show you've put on for the outside world? wow.

i do have some friends who really care for me. a minority few, but yes i do have. and i treasure them a lot. because they were the ones that had known what hell i have gone through the past two years, and had stayed by me, tolerating my tonnes of sarcasm and mood swings. and of course, they are the ones that I feel happy for, whenever something good happens to them, like when they get 3As. and even if they don't, i won't give them a i-don't-know-how-to-help-you look, because i would know that's the last thing they need. for eg, i'm really thankful for wt. hahaha the one tt always scolds me back into reality, and i somehow won't be so idealistic ard her. (coz i'll get scolded) so thanks a lot girl! (: and thanks to those pple tt i din name here but i know you cared for me! (:

but to those that are so darn superficial and selfish, i just wish them good luck. i'm sure they won't survive long. muahahaha =P

maybe i'm just being envious of other people's results. maybe i won't be complaining if i got 3/4 As. maybe i'm just being childish and bitchy. whatever. but i KNOW i am tired of being taken for granted. too much time and energy has been wasted on these so-called friends. pple who would only look for me when they have something to complain about. pple who i can't even reach when i have something to say. pple who gave me a i-don't-know-how-to help-you look along with that but-i'm-glad-i-did-better-than-you face. i guess A level results was the last straw. next time i probably won't even be bothered to give you my specialty plastic smile.

harhar. i shld have said these things a long long long time ago.

Father-And-Mother-I-Love-You =]

2006-03-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

i love my family:) they rawk. they really do. even though i have a crazy brother, a crazy mom and a crazy dad.

my nice brother told me that i don't look stupid so i shld still have a chance to get a great future. and he actually praised me today, told me tt i am his best jiejie. though he added tt i was the only one he has. erps. hahaha and the cutest thing was that he actually patted me on the shoulder to ask me to kan4 kai1 dian3 or else i'll grow old and get wrinkles and he won't want to ren4 me anymore. hahaha. oh man can't believe he's only primary 2 -.-''

my nice mom treated me to fish n co. and mint choc ice cream(my fav!) to make me feel much better. and she cooked all my fav dishes tonight to make me feel good in case i don't feel good. and she drops me phone calls during office hours(which doesn't mean anything since we both are slackers when it comes to work) to chat with me to get rid of my boredom(and i suspect, hers as well) haha

my nice dad bought me loads of dvds from his trip! hahaha got da chang jin and my fav lovers in paris!! yay now i don't have to feel sad abt missing an episode coz i have to go tuition. and he also bought me books n vcds n cds on korean coz he knows tt i want to learn korean. and he bought me a bimbotic bag!! -cheers-

we rawk as a family=]

The pain behind the smile

2006-03-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

A-B-B-B-B3

i won't deny tt i had a hard time trying to put up a brave front in front of almost everyone, including those who called me to ask about my grades.

66% of the cohort scored 3 As or 4 As.

50% of my class scored 4 straight As.

the other half almost all scored 3 As.

somehow such statistics look so unfamiliar to me, as though they belonged to another class, instead of my own class. Well, I guess to some extent, it is true, since those statistics have nothing to do with me at all.

I just happen not to be part of them. that's all.

don't get me wrong. i'm not entirely upset over those results. afterall, though they are not good, they are not bad also. so why do i feel so... numb?

maybe it's just...

sigh.

just get over it wanyi.

):

2006-03-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

okay i admit i'm bored ):

bleah.

mind doing a lil quiz for me? hahaha

http://kevan.org/johari?name=w-a-n-y-i

A taskbar w/o windows

2006-03-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

this time i really HATE my comp ): to be specific, my taskbar. somehow it refuses to tell me how many and what windows are opened. so i end up ignoring pple's msn windows w/o even knowing tt they are there. and i end up minimizing windows accidentally, only to realize tt they totally disappear w/o any link for me to maximize them again ):

to vann if u r reading this, thnx for ur msn msg to wish me luck for As! (: so sorry but my taskbar just din display u ): sorry!!

and to other victims tt i dunno...sorry too!! ):

fancy me getting upset over a taskbar. it must be the results blues T_T

The day before D-Day ):

2006-02-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

i am nervous. i wouldn't be normal if i wasn't. no point worrying, i know. the results are long ago determined. but still, what if..? -touch wood-

i just hope that i will do well, and of coz, my darling friends will do well.

good luck n ganbatte my dear friends! =]

w-is-for-wanyi

2006-02-27T13:29:00.001+08:00

okay i feel weird typing this new post in blogspot after blogging for more than half a year on diary-x. and i feel so darn upset that all my posts on diary-x are actually gone. boo. ): still thinking about whether to even get a new blog but argh, being in a slack company with a slack post, i have fingers that are itching to do sth useful. hahaha in other words, BLOG.

sigh, even the tagboard and profile yada yada haven't been done yet. it's been ages since i last done up any template at all so yar, being lazy, i shall just temporarily use this skin before i finally bother to do anything decent to this blog.

by the way, I HATE public blogs -_-'' (so why am i blogging here again?!)

rah. wadever. i'm just being a very grumpy person.